What's in there?

I’ve never identified with any particular age, gender, race, or economic class. I’m aware that I’m male, Chinese, early 40’s, middle-class; and if you’ve ever spent any time around me you know that I love making jokes about race, age, gender, and money, but none of that means anything to me personally. Is that weird? Am I supposed to have more of an ego or identity or connection to any of those statistics? Sometimes I feel I’m a bland mishmash of unfocused influences. Maybe it’s because I love so many incongruous things at the opposite ends of the spectrums. I love guns and chicks and cars with as much passion as I love musical theatre, dance, and fashion. I love precisely executed, rarefied cuisine, and I love cooking with Cheez-Whiz and Fritos. I am often sensitive and emotional, also I am crass, rude, and a complete pig. So age and gender and race and money mean nothing to me - that’s good, we’ve all grown up with Disney movies and everything else telling us it’s the person inside that matters, yup, got that. But what is that person inside? Sometimes I feel like I’m this nebulous vague uninteresting thing, because I don’t have an easily identifiable core. But then, most of us are in the same boat, aren’t we?