It's the clothes.

The B&D Ball performance is really coming together, the swordfight choreography tween Photiq and I feels better and better. The fancy theatre swords and the tight ruffley clothes, you feel totally different in costume. There's a certain confidence, a calmly poised assurance, ok now we're doing this for real. I saw an interview once with Ray Park, talking about getting into Darth Maul character, and he said the first time he put on those robes he was all "Aww yeeeaaaahhhhh." I love costume! Love it love it love it.

We only had the top coats to our 18th century French dandy outfits, we're wearing black jeans underneath and Photiq says "Dude! We look so J-Rock!" and it's true. I still have fantasies about being in an asian goth boy band. I even have the band name picked out: "Euthanasia". Or we might spell it "Youth In Asia", we'll figure that out when we get our first gig.